Well as I move on from my messy divorce I find myself in new territory. I have taken the time to try and fix all of the things that made me feel bad about myself. I have lost 75 pounds since Valentines day....run 5 km a day to try and get back that body that I used to have when I played football. I have to be honest I am starting to feel good about myself...more confident ...and increasingly more aware that I am a stronger and better person.
The last 5 weeks have seemed like an eternity full of divorve events and behaviour from the "mother of my children" that would leave you stunned...I just pray that it will be over soon and that I can have peace and just focus on giving my 3 1/2 year old twin daughters the happiness and life they deserve. I refuse to bad mouth her , or sink to that level, but lets just say that I don't know if the hurt will ever heal or if I will ever be able to forgive her for what she has done....perhaps someday I will wake up and have peace...but until then I thank God for friends and family who have been so supportive.
Moving on....
Found this quote that defines how I feel right now:
Character, Integrity, Loyalty, Commitment, Respect....these are all attributes that I try and instill in my every day life and that I am teaching my children.
I don't know if I will find someone else to share my life with or if anyone would even b interested...but as I move into the single life I know what I want and that person would need to share the same values that I do....and not be afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Is that person out there?
I was never a person who thought about fashion until now...I am suddenly aware of what I am wearing when I head out the door...what are women attracted to? Jeans and a tight white t-shirt? Dress shirt? Hoodie..lol. Who knows.........I am 35 and getting old...hahah...but I honestly feel 21. As the old saying goes "you are only as old as you feel".
I don't know if I will find someone else to share my life with or if anyone would even b interested...but as I move into the single life I know what I want and that person would need to share the same values that I do....and not be afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Is that person out there?
I was never a person who thought about fashion until now...I am suddenly aware of what I am wearing when I head out the door...what are women attracted to? Jeans and a tight white t-shirt? Dress shirt? Hoodie..lol. Who knows.........I am 35 and getting old...hahah...but I honestly feel 21. As the old saying goes "you are only as old as you feel".
Well sorry for my wacky post.....writing what I feel at the moment and I feel much better as I reflect on my life and what I want to accomplish....my "bucket list" is getting longer....but my motivation is growing.
Paul
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